Currently Playing Garden State By Various Artists see related

What I am thankful for:

The Garden State CD, teddy bears, my dad, and most importantly my fantastic roommates.

Ryan broke up with me, it is official. I went to sleep w/ the teddy bears while listening to the Garden State CD. My dad called the same night and when I told him he was so wonderful, and my roommates have been so kind and have made me keep laughing. It's hard to feel better when you wish you could say more things to him, but know it wouldn't matter anyways. It's hard to understand how it happened when I was just me... I guess that is what happens when you get mixed up with the scummy ones. Nonetheless, I'm not too down. Life right now is a bunch easier without a guy mucking about!

I've heard or talked to all my graduate schools and all my applications are completed. I'm still paying off the application fees... but the important thing is that I am DONE with applying!!! I should be talking to professors at my schools and getting my name out there but it's hard to motivate myself to do it.

Laundry time!

It's been a while. School has started, and I'm so glad it is Monday. I only had one class last week and my mind needed the classes to keep it from thinking too much about other things!

Grandma had a stint in the hospital, but is now out but at a recovery center or something. Hopefully she'll recover so she can go back to her new place with Tami. She's in a facility now... how awful does that sound? I've heard it is nice though.

Grandma seems to be doing much better. She's finally with her full-time care-provider and they seem to be getting along quite well. Tami actually got her out of bed and to the kitchen table for about 2 hours around breakfast time. She's getting Grandma to stand up straight and work her muscles. It's fantastic to see her smiling again!

Boys still stink, but everyone says he's just being a boy, which make sense. Tuesday I drive back to KU. Woot. Today I helped Laura (bestest friend in the whole wide world) move into the KAT house, and boy does she have a huge room, and the girls there seem nice that I met. I'm glad she's away from her parent's houses. She's coming over to help me pack up tomorrow!

Looking forward to my last semester, as long as I figure out what I'm doing after May 22nd!

Currently Watching Mad About You - The Complete First Season see related

I hate boys, why don't they make any sense? Or, why don't they call? Either is a very valid question.

My grandma had some issues this weekend and now has a hard time walking and getting up from sitting. So, today we move her from her home of many years to a new home way the heck out of town (the other side of I-25). It's better than a nursing home, I'll admit. She'll be living in an actual house with another older person who needs assistance and there is a live-in care-provider. There are 6 of these homes that are just now opening to be rented, and future plans are for the residents to get to know each other etc. It's just so sad, the house I also partly grew up in is no longer. I can only hope that we keep it long enough that if I find out that I'm accepted to CSU and decide to go there I can rent it from my unkles and dad. That would be super handy. So, life has been SO crazy this break. I think it was a good break for the most part, but so many new/crazy/bad/wierd things have happened. And I lost so much time with the jury duty. I have a ton I'd like to do but don't know if it will be accomplished. Meh.
Time to go be productive (while trying to sneak in a bit more Mad About You watching - I got the season 1 DVD for Christmas!!). Everyone enjoy your last full week of 'freedom'!

It's a new year! Woo! 2004 was a crazy, fun-filled, completely packed and entirely eventful and life-changing year. Wow. 2005 had better be as good. If it isn't, hopefully I'll at least continue getting to know the newer confident me.

Sadly the graduate school apps aren't in yet. KU's is almost completely done, and the application has actually been sent it, but the rest of the materials have to go. The other schools require a modification to the KU essay and also applying and sending in the additional materials. I should be able to get it done tomorrow AND visit the dentist. Given that my car starts. I think it is just a bit too cold for my poor little car. On the plus side, it now gets to live in the garage. The downside is why. Thursday Mom, Sam and I were headed up the Poudre Canyon to go cross-country skiing. We ended up hitting some black ice and to make a long story short (and my eyes were firmly closed!) we tipped the SUV into the ditch on the side of the road. Only on the side, it wasn't technically a roll-over accident. Anyway, we're all here and the car doesn't appear to be THAT damaged (oh please let it not be). And the crazy thing is, only bruises, no cuts (though two windows broke), no breaks, no hospital visits, and the rented skis in the back seat were un-damaged. I have a feeling we won't be skiing this winter, partly because of the missing SUV, but also it seems like an omen. I am so thankful though. I can still picture the car in my mind, still feel what I felt when I opened my eyes. You don't think these things actually happen to YOU, but they do.

As to the relationship. It sucks being far away, on relationship 'pause.' I had a freak-out last week. I suddenly felt kinda annoyed, and I felt like I'd lost the spark and that I maybe didn't like him. I was really worried. I mean, this is me afterall. I was worried I'd hurt the poor guy, because it seems like he is really into me. All it took was a bit of time, and I also talked with Laura and things are better now. I just get scared. However, now I'm worried that I said something to turn him away from me. Go figure. I don't know how this works and I'm no good at it, but I thought it might get a bit easier. I wish I was back in Lawrence.

But, no simpathy. I'm actually doing quite fine. Life is good, I can't complain. I'm here, healthy, unbroken, and relaxing. Or I will be once I get the apps done! Adios